I almost never share about projects I am working on unless it is tiny shots of my paintings in progress in that cute little square on Instagram. But here’s the secret, I am writing a book. I finished my book proposal and outline right before Mercury Retrograde started. All is well and I am ready to celebrate. It is time to work on my research and my rough draft. But then something happened, this little antagonist voice I like to call Fear set it claws into my soul.
Here’s a couple things that came up in my melt down:
You don’t know enough about your subject. Quit being a know it all and just shut up.
You shouldn’t be writing, you should be doing Yoga. You are getting fat and avoiding your spiritual practices
Don’t you have a real job? Writing is and never will be a real job.
You’re a Mom AND you are a wife. How could you even think about trying to help others? Use up all your time helping your family.
Didn’t you want to travel? Screw your vision board where it says work on grounding. Let’s book tickets! Southwest is having a sale. Tickets to Hawaii are $45.00!!
You shot your arrow, little Sagittarius. Wait until Aries season to write. You don’t need to practice, you’re awesome! Let’s procrastinate!
Everyone WILL think your book sucks. They aren’t going to buy it and you are wasting your time.
You have no good stories to tell about these demons you want to write about. All your stories are stupid!
You are an embarrassment as a woman.
Writing is an over achievement. Quit being stupid!
You will never have time to finish all these chapters. Seriously, you are insane to even try.
And it kept coming. The voice had a lot to say once I organized the last of my outline. And I get it, it’s a huge project. I mean, writing a book? It is a lot of pages, a lot of time, a lot of research. I am a little crazy for taking this passion project on and sure, Fear does have a couple of good points. So, I put my pen down and I let Fear chat with me. I heard Fear out. I took notes. I laid in a bath. I walked my dogs. I played with my family. I danced. I worked out. I listened.
Not everyone makes it passed the point of the Fear Lecture. But here’s the deal.
Today, on the wake of my serious fear-based melt down, my horoscope notifications pinged on my iPhone, “Your Priorities are Clear Today.”
You are right, universe. You are right, iPhone. You are right Co-Star Horoscope App. (which I love, by the way. Download it if you are into getting daily updates about your cycles with your full entire astrological chart in mind!)
My Priorities are Clear Today.
It’s time to write. Ground. And set a plan for my book.
So how does one jump from the mindset that they are insane to doing the work? How do we get passed the Fear lecture?
Make a deadline.
Now, before you freak out and get triggered by words like planner, schedule, deadline…
If you are doing a creative project, you need a plan. It is the best way to drown the villainous voice ranting at you to not do what you want to do.
You can accomplish all your desires with small goals that lead up to one big goal.
Creating something that isn’t in this world is a HUGE deal. It will be overwhelming at times and it will also be overly rewarding as you grow and learn through the entire process. But you must be there for the whole process. There is no easy way to the end result. No one is going to write that book for you. No amount of Wealth will support your creative endeavor and, no amount of cheating will help it either.
You are your ultimate support and resource.
So, dream big and dream as big as you want, but once you are done dreaming. Sit down with your Fear and see what you need. Buy a planner and sticker it up until it is acceptable to use. Thank the universe for telling the idea to come to you and get to work building a map of little goals that lead to the one big goal.
And guess what? Deadlines do not have to bring you down.
They are the key to tracking where you are at in your process. They are also the key to keeping you grounded in your creative project. Whether you have a looming submission, juried show, or book proposal due, in order to let your Fear, know you are going to do this no matter what it says, you have to make a deadline.
As I type this now, I know that I have tons of things to do and I can’t just check out and go write my book. So, I have a handy dandy purple planner specifically for deadlines. I have self-made deadlines for researching sections of my book as well as when I expect I will be done writing certain chapters. And I am holding myself accountable for writing every single day. And I am holding myself accountable to resting and everything else too.
Are you ready to hold yourself accountable? Let’s do this!
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